Her World

Friday, December 01, 2006

my nite feelins

its 1.36am 1st Dec..

n i m nt slping..

watching It All Started With A Kiss..

n e tears r fallin like they nvr fell b4..

e show iz nice..

n it makes me tink..

y r gals so sentimental?

guys dont cry wen they watch touchin parts..

bt y gals do?

i like watching drama series..

though it iz irritating tt there r MANI episodes..

it iz still nice..

it iz no doubt drama..

but..

it gifs us e little fairytale inspiration..

it makes ppl wonder,dream,imagine them bein e main actress..

it gifs ppl hope..it brings humour n light to ones life..

=)

while i was watching..i teared real badly..

n i realli realli realli do haf e freakin impulsive urge to IM him..

to tell him..

let him noe hz i feel towards him..

bt e smarter side of me gt hold of e dumb impulsive side..

i open his window,close his window,open,close,open,close,open,close.. .. .. ..

i tried to hint..via my msn nick..

tot of nudgin him..

but..

wads e pt?

he iz alreadi Attached..

he don care hu u r,wad u do.. .. ..

in short..ur existence..

whether anot u appear infront of him..

or nt appearing infront of him..

he doesnt care nor bother..

here cums e angel..

-wad if u matter a little to him?even if its juz a little tiny itsy bit..u will b happy rite?-

i will smack tis angel now..

i will roar at tis angel n tell her Stop Dreaming..

don be too positive..

tt sentence..

bcuz of tt sentence..

bcuz i m afraid of wad i hope turnin out to b e opposite..

i bcame pessimistic..

so ppl..don tell me why u oways look at e dark side of life..

why u so no confident..

u ppl dunno me well enough..

u ppl dunno wad had happened before..

so juz shut up..

u tink i like tis side of me?

u tink i like bein so pessimistic?

u tink i like bein so afraid of hz ppl look at me?

i m still waiting..for e youtube to dwnload my drama!!!
*faster faster faster*
i m still hafin e urge to tell him..
but..
i cant..
i can tolerate n control tis urge..
i aint e past chewling le..
i haf grown more mature..
oki nt mani nt much..
bt at least a little little bit..
=)

JIAYOU TO EVERYONE!!!

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